Ok, a some words about all this... (sorry for the lenght!)
I believe I had one of the best OW courses someone can have; since class one (of 16) my instructor educated us in all kind of aspects of scuba diving. Was an extremely complete course, so complete that a lot of people would say it was too complete. But I just loved it. For life circumstances I could only do my OW course with him.
Anyways I learnt things I consider fundamental and none of the other instructors I had all the way trough to my Instructors courses didn't even mentioned them.
Safety was always paramount for him and he was crystal clear on this with his speech and with his actions. Of course this was not all, but was for sure the main thing.
I can affirm that until 3 months ago I would never EVER have thought about diving beyond recreational limits in any sense with my current recreational training. This was rock solid on me since my OW course.
So, what happened? Why I lost it and something I had very clear suddenly became blurry?
Some time after taking my OW course life takes me to New Zealand. In this beautiful country I find the opportunity to do a Divemaster internship with a local dive center at the Bay of Islands.
I must confess that I was completely shocked when, after having all this training, I saw that they where training OW divers in just 3 days! It took me some time to accept it and, after all, I wanted to dive and this seemed to be the only way to do it often and earn some experience.
So every time I was helping an instructor in the classroom or in the swimming pool and I felt I could use some of my knowledge to make this 3-day-divers a little better the instructor would 'advice' me to stay quiet because the divers -don't need this- as the system prays.
Also when I was concerned about some safety aspects I realized that ?you are just the trainee, what would you know". As some of the instructors would point.
So things like this during a given period of time started weakening my mindset and blurring some concepts I had very clear from the start.
Now, for the past 3 months I've been living in Egypt. I came here because its reputation (well deserved) as 'diving paradise'.
If my mindset got weakened diving in NZ, here in Egypt it got wrecked (on a metaphoric way!!)
Going out on a daily basis on a boat I can tell you: you will see every kind of stupid things you can imagine. And some others you can't even imagine!
Except for a handful of serious diving centers that know what they do, you will find a lot of people using the diving business just to make some money regardless standards, procedures and common sense.
I was disappointed with myself after I did the 50m dive. I was too weak to say no. I needed to show how macho I was (yes, stupid!!) And in places like this very seldom you will find someone that tells you this is wrong. You will also seldom find somebody that never dived beyond not 40, but 50 meters lacking the training and equipment
But is a learnt lesson. Is a shame I had to experience it first hand to realize how misleaded I was. Where too many concessions and too long with the wrong people took me to.
I hope you find this message useful in some way. I hope you learnt the same lesson I did but from the safety of a desk. And most of all, I hope you learn not to betray yourself and what you believe. A LOT of brainless people out there will tell you you are wrong. Just trust your education and common sense.