@northernone, Thanks for this detailed write-up!
I do have a question. My rotator cuff tear is keeping me shallow and my gills damp so I'm most interested in those unspoken issues that might have started the snowball effect. When things go bad, I toss Grace under the bus and go into survival mode. One needs to be highly focussed and effective but I find myself overly limited by my dominant arm.
Would you consider this to be a factor in your incident?
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In summarization, I think it was primarily a lack of skill (applying appropriately what I can do) rather than a lack of ability in this situation. But I've had both before.
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Ouch, I missed your cuff issue, hopefully you're moving towards recovery nicely (never as quickly as we want)
Thinking it over. Those unspoken factors can be significant.
I had a bad time a few years ago with a closed valve on a single backmounted tank after doing a negative entry. It motivated me in my physio, worked to regain that range of motion. (And embarrassingly enough as a visually fit guy, also my grip strength.)
For this dive I think with a less achy body I would have stayed on the bottom (with gloves) and comfortably dragged myself out past the surf... One hand holding a mask and the other doing the hauling.
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My structural issues (compacted spine and busted up knees, wrists and ankles from old breaks/injuries plus reduced range of motion from poor physio after 9 months mainly bedridden 5 years ago) are pretty manageable, it's just a matter of how much I'll hurt the follow day/ month. I can still go into bull low and push through, like you mentioned, as long as not too much gear is involved.
The midwinter thread about patching up the body with exercises I've taken to heart with a fairly constant daily routine of stretching and the like.
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Honest self assessment is hard, particularly facing (or supplementing) weaknesses. Maybe I'll get the hang of it eventually.
I'm too young for this!
Cameron