Don't beat yourself up over it,
@nldunn. For some on ScubaBoard that may not be too far off of "normal"

, but I won't dive in those conditions either. And also, depending on the direction a 30 knot wind is coming from, the dive shop I use on Roatan would cancel everyone's dives in those conditions. Frankly that's one of the reasons I dive with them.
We are recreational divers. By definition it's supposed to be fun. It sounds like you had fun on this trip, and learned a number of lessons that will serve you well on your next one in a few months. That's a win all the way around.