This is probably going to be a very weird post and too self-centered to be appreciated by many, but for some reason, I always thought I would get an opportunity to dive with Lynne sometime in my local waters. I didn’t know when, but somehow it felt inevitable. We talked (pm’ed) about it once several years ago, nothing since. We had never met.
I spent some time daydreaming about what dive I would pick – which one would she like best? I think she said she really didn’t like wrecks too much and I knew she wouldn’t go past 100 ft, so that presented some limitations. Would I bring a speargun and shoot a fish or would that be unwelcome?
Some days I would be doing dives, (many days really) and in the back of my mind, the thought of her doing this particular dive would creep into my mind. The strangeness of these thoughts was not lost upon me, particularly since I don’t recall having similar thoughts with respect to anyone else and there never were even tentative plans for it to actually occur.
I never finalized in my mind what was the best site and of course it would have been dependent on conditions on “that day”, but I always wondered what it would be like with her over-the-top attention to detail. I could pretty much envision her going over my rather eclectic assemblage of gear and also demanding a detailed dive plan with a host of contingencies and how my son would fit into the dive. I even gave thought to what extra details would be necessary for her personalized dive briefing.
It all sounds so weird now, and sad.
I think my appreciation for all that she gave to the dive community was the motivation for me to try to share some of the joy I get from my local dives. I guess I recognized that this would be the only means I could offer to personally pay her back for all the patience and wisdom she openly and humbly shared.
My eyes about bugged out of my head when I first read the announcement last night. As someone else said on this thread, my personal sense of sadness is surprising strong, particularly toward someone I never met.
My sincere condolences to Peter, family and friends.