Man, keep in mind you are getting advice on the internet. There is definitely a draconian sentiment on this board where if you are going anywhere outside of industry accepted norms you are a cowboy and you are bringing any resulting misfortune on yourself. Don't let it get to you.
HOWEVER, I will support the notion that these kind of things take time and you need to work up to your goals. It sounds like you have deconstructed this incident enough that you realize where you went wrong, how you could have handled it more effectively and are ready to put your new-found wisdom to practice. That is good. The next question is how to get there. Continuing to dive in a comfortable environment with equipment you are used to is the perfect place to explore your limits. Don't throw too many variables at yourself at one time. If you have done the same dive a few times and want to go 10-20ft deeper then by all means, knock yourself out. Once that new depth is comfortable go 10-20 deeper, etc. I think people here will generally scoff at just plunging to the depths without the experience to back it up.
As for your deep cert... My biggest concern is that many charters (at least around here) will want to see a deep card and an AOW cert to go on some more advanced off-shore wrecks. So you can flash that card on a dive boat and get carted 40 miles off-shore to a 130ft wreck. That would be a bad thing. Or a student walking out of your class with a new deep card saying, "Sweet, I have all the information and trianing I need to dive to 130". Wrong. I think your instructor did you a disservice. I would try to find a new instructor or an experienced diver in your area that can help you reach your goals. Just make sure they actually know what they are doing.
Again, don't take the criticism too hard. Nobody wants to see anyone else get hurt. It takes a lot to share experiences like this, especially to an anonymous crowd like the internet so just take from it whatever you feel will help you in the long run.
HOWEVER, I will support the notion that these kind of things take time and you need to work up to your goals. It sounds like you have deconstructed this incident enough that you realize where you went wrong, how you could have handled it more effectively and are ready to put your new-found wisdom to practice. That is good. The next question is how to get there. Continuing to dive in a comfortable environment with equipment you are used to is the perfect place to explore your limits. Don't throw too many variables at yourself at one time. If you have done the same dive a few times and want to go 10-20ft deeper then by all means, knock yourself out. Once that new depth is comfortable go 10-20 deeper, etc. I think people here will generally scoff at just plunging to the depths without the experience to back it up.
As for your deep cert... My biggest concern is that many charters (at least around here) will want to see a deep card and an AOW cert to go on some more advanced off-shore wrecks. So you can flash that card on a dive boat and get carted 40 miles off-shore to a 130ft wreck. That would be a bad thing. Or a student walking out of your class with a new deep card saying, "Sweet, I have all the information and trianing I need to dive to 130". Wrong. I think your instructor did you a disservice. I would try to find a new instructor or an experienced diver in your area that can help you reach your goals. Just make sure they actually know what they are doing.
Again, don't take the criticism too hard. Nobody wants to see anyone else get hurt. It takes a lot to share experiences like this, especially to an anonymous crowd like the internet so just take from it whatever you feel will help you in the long run.
Battles, I must admit it surprises me also. The information on CO2 loading is helpful, I've never heard it before.
What surprises me the most is the "your back to your old tricks trying for 100' " and "why dive below 30 feet" sediment that seams to be an ongoing topic in replys. Granted, knowledge is the key to avoding problems (hence the point of this post... another missed point) What good will knowledge do if not supported by experience.
In a deep class (well maybe some that I didn't take) you learn theory, then you dive deep. Knowledge and Experience. Since this incident I have spent many hours on research and introspection to see what happen.
Now that I have a better understanding, farther along in my skills, and believe I am physicaly and mentally ready for deep dives, I'm told told that is a bad thing ???
Confused....
Tim