@tmassey I want to begin by expressing my gratitude for your willingness to discuss the emotional side of this process. There is a machismo that seems to surround the world of diving that effectively nullifies emotional awareness and acceptance, and that's a shame. You mentioned how many of the people you've dived with were interested in mechanics--and that's important, to be sure--but those mechanics are going to be drive (consciously or not) by our emotional underpinnings. Being confident and cognizant enough to recognize this is a tremendous first step.
Second, rather than write my own book on my recent Fundies experience (and it would be a book ... a novelette at its shortest), I thought I would simply say that your in-class experience, from the classroom to near-water to on- and in-water work, was almost identical. I took the class from German "Mr. G." Arango at Buddy Dive on Bonaire, but everything you detailed here seemed almost identical. In fact, it was your original post that prepared me to go into my Fundies course with the hope that I would pass but, also, with the acceptance that even if I didn't I would be a better diver and, honestly, that's all that really mattered.
For what it is worth, we do share some differences. First, when I took Fundies I hadn't been Open Water certified for even a year. (Your original post was part of why and how I knew I could--and should--take Fundies so early.) I had 30 dives under my belt when we made it to Bonaire, and an additional 15 dives prior to the start of class. Class consisted of me, my wife, and Mr. G.
I, also, have struggled with the Evaluation vs. Instruction balance in every class I've ever taken. A huge part of this comes from my insatiable need for information. If you've ever introduced yourself to StrengthsFinder, you'll understand when I say I am a high Learner/Input. One of the things I was struggling with (and still am to an extent) is finding instruction that is "serious."
There are a lot of folks who have said, "Just dive. You'll figure it out." But there's a huge difference between diving and potentially creating bad habits and having someone who is highly trained and highly skilled point out things you're doing to fight yourself in the water.
That being said, I think that
@stuartv made some great points early on about the need for Evaluative-only courses. His advice I've received on this board have always been sound and well thought-out, and I find this no different. At some point there is only so far an educator can lead us before we must begin teaching ourselves (and that's the best educators, too--not every instructor was born to teach).
One final difference (and this likely has to do with the difference in our skill levels going into Fundies in the first place), I am a GUE fanatic. This could be down to the fact that I've never taken any other course that leans to the technical, but it could also be the sheer amount of information GUE deems necessary for a fundamental, beginners class. How much more in-depth will their Rescue Diver equivalent course be when compared to other agencies?
For what it's worth, I wasn't expecting to pass but I did: a Recreational pass. I'm not certain I could have earned a tech pass even if I had been prepared for that. The fact of the matter was, I only had a wetsuit and had never dived doubles, so I was only interested in the Recreational pass to begin with.
That being said, I am trying to schedule a Drysuit Primer with Guy Shockey for later this year ... so long as this Covid thing drops to a simmer ... (thanks
@MykaDives for the Guy recommendation), and with a little bit of time diving dry maybe a Doubles Primer down the road. Perhaps I'll go for that Tech Pass with time.
Between now and then, I'll continue to dive with my wife in the mine pits and spend every dive drilling at least one skill we learned during Fundies. I think I've learned almost as much from reading your posts here
@tmassey as I have from class. The need for introspection is super important, and I wouldn't have thought that without reading these posts.
We both share a tendency to move too quickly when under stress, and thanks to you I now have something else to add to my repertoire of things to think about while I'm training.
I will say this, though, about the Evaluation vs. Instruction comparison. Each of us arrive at this moment with a wide array of experiences, and those experiences work as the prism through which we create our worldview. For me, I know myself well enough to be able to say that a major factor in feelings of disappointment or dissatisfaction with a course or an instructor eventually boils down to my own incessant strive for perfection.
When I took my PADI Open Water course, it wasn't good enough to simply read the book and watch the accompanying DVD. I immediately signed up for ScubaBoard and read everything I could find about diving. I watched YouTube videos about gas management and decompression illness. I got onto DAN's website and read articles there. I found outdated (and likely pirated) copies of course material from SSI and read that. I laid on my living room floor with my fins on and watched television and moved my legs around. (I still do this, by the way, but now I have fifteen pounds of ankle weights strapped around my feet.)
The point is, for me, I spend so out-of-classroom time absorbing information and practicing the material that, by the time class rolls around, I've surpassed the minimum requirements. This has always been a curse for me. (It's why I graduated after my junior year of high school, and why I slept through my entire junior year of high school.)
The point is (and I think you make this point in your original post, even if you didn't do it consciously), as someone who seems intent on learning and bettering oneself, it might always feel like an evaluation because you're doing a lot of that "just dive" thing and figuring it out on your own before class.
Anyway, thanks again for the write up. You definitely made my Fundies class easier.