Meh. It's not that much more to become an instructor. It's really not the number, but rather the quality of the dives and training that make the real difference. You can't expect an instructor with crappy trim & buoyancy to produce a competent diver who is in full control. Hell, we've got people on here who go out of their way to tell us that trim and buoyancy are a scam.
The goal of diving for most people, me included, is to have fun. It's not so you guys will approve of how I dive, which is shocking, I know. To me, being in total control is a lot more fun than a lot of the chaos I see. But, there's no doubt about it that many enjoy their diving in spite of being out of control. If their control is so poor that they are a "white knuckle diver", and are always on a precipitous drop or rise in the water column, odds are that they won't be diving for long.
So what's the goal when someone becomes a DM? Yeah: fun. They don't learn the science of trim and buoyancy, because frankly, the industry as a whole doesn't really understand it as that. They tell you that you'll figure it out in a hundred dives or so, when in reality a freshly minted OW diver can accomplish it easily. So why is everyone shocked when DMs don't have the buoyancy they seem to expect they should have? Personally, I think dody has beat himself up enough over this. There's no need for all of us to question his skill level, when it probably exceeds that of most DMs and probably instructors as well. I tell you one thing he's got going for him that all of could emulate: a lack of ego.
It's one thing to be lacking certain skills. It's another problem to be lacking those skills and be so arrogant that you can't see it. Give me a single dodys who is trying to figure out what went wrong over a thousand divers who have no concept things could have gone better. He can and will learn. The other schmos won't and can't. I mean, when is the last time any of us criticized our own diving? When was the last time we were able to admit that to the world? We all make mistakes... at least I know I do. I'll stop making mistakes about the same time as I take my last breath. Vive les erreurs! Embrace them. Learn from them. Admit them. I've made some doozies in my lifetime, both above and under the water.
Thanks Pete for your post! This thread needed it. Don't get me wrong, this is not a "nasty" thread by any means. However, Dody does not need the sanctimonious stuff. I don't
feel Dody's problems are totally of his creation. My
gut tells me an instructor may be the route of his diving issues.
Pete, I observed you training a class. You were the the epitome of leading/training by example. I had two instructors that were as qualified and as good as you are. One was previously a commercial saturation diver and the other is a pros pro. Their biggest asset was training by example and by being incredible divers. They did not command or dictate, they usually asked questions. They tried to teach us to resolve our own situations by asking obvious questions of ourselves. We studied the basics and then worked through those issues in the water. Like Boyles law.
My point:
Being nice to the OP is not difficult. The best way to be nice is to rephrase a sanctimonious declaration into a question. Use the narrative voice and not the declarative voice. The OP's post title says it all. He is already beating himself up more than we ever could. Why pile on?
Your point about all of us having some deficiencies is absolutely true. You corrected me on the board once regarding my perceived diving skills. You tried informing me that I really am a good diver (context was amateur, not pro level [paraphrased]). I think of myself as a decent diver, but with an asterisk: because I am really just a glorified vacation diver. My attitude keeps my head on a swivel, and keeps me always working on incremental improvement. I try to always have a contingency plan.
I
feel Dody is going to become a really good diver. He was able to read and respond to the many pointed posts and not get defensive. He will, I
feel through independent learning, and maybe with real professional help, hone his skills further. I
feel he will train himself to become the DM he is already credentialed for. Dody tried to be humorous in a few posts--I am sorry so many are tone deaf to humor and sarcasm, even when spelled out for them.
Good luck Dody!
PS: I
believe it is time for you to get a new instructor (? yes or no?). Read his/her CV. Verify his creds by talking with students he has trained. I don't know you or your instructor. Just my gut writing here.