Before I say anything, thank you to any one who reads this. Let me start off by saying I am an extremely new diver, I just certified on April 8, 2017. My boyfriend, son, and I had to make an unplanned trip to San Diego. So we decided to plan a guided dive at La Jolla Shores to get some practice for our trip to Thailand in June. My son was certified with me, but my boyfriend has roughly 20 dives under his belt. In any case, I have been dealing with some anxiety with diving, but I was really excited to go this morning, since I worked my butt off to get past it to certify. Extra, classes, the whole bit. We signed up to have a single instructor for the 3 of us to make it less stressful for me. We went this morning, and I had a little anxiety because it was not only my first ocean open water, but also my first cold water dive. I certified at The Crater in Utah, which is a hot spring dive. So, I almost wear myself out trying to get a 7mm wetsuit and hood on, which I've never worn. Other than suit and tank, I do have all my own gear because I'm really small and my boyfriend said it would help with my anxiety. In any case, I needed help making it past the breaks, by which time I was pretty tired. But I was glad I made it. So when it's time to start heading down, I realize I'm starting to feel claustrophobic. I can't catch my breath, so I come back up after about 3 feet. I tried it again, but I start getting more and more anxious because visibility is literally about a foot. After about 15 minutes I'm in full blown panic attack and in tears because I'm struggling so bad. My boyfriend and I decided to call the dive and the instructor continued with my son (who did awesome). I'm so incredibly disappointed in myself and I don't know how to get past it. They were really really supportive, and said I just tried too much new stuff at once. I completely agree with that, but I'm so upset with myself. Not only did I waste A LOT of money, but I couldn't get past 3 feet and I've been down almost 30. I really really love diving so far, but I don't know how to get past this block. Any constructive advice would be greatly appreciated. I have two weeks of diving planned in June and I don't want to let everyone, including myself down.
On my first dive ever I had to put on a 7mm wetsuit in 35C heat and 90% humidity. After that in the water I was short of breath and close to panic. It didn't happen fortunately. After that I learnt how to save energy in the preparation. So don't be disappointed, just go slowly, or improve fitness level.