Colombo,
Have you had anyone try to address your kinesthetic/proprioception issues, either formally or informally? Even if you can master the basic skills, both your safety and your enjoyment of diving are going to compromised if you don't have decent awareness and control of your body positioning.
I would deal with that first. It should help you with all physical activities, which may in turn lead to some positive mental changes as well.
Have you had anyone try to address your kinesthetic/proprioception issues, either formally or informally? Even if you can master the basic skills, both your safety and your enjoyment of diving are going to compromised if you don't have decent awareness and control of your body positioning.
I would deal with that first. It should help you with all physical activities, which may in turn lead to some positive mental changes as well.