You mentioned at the end of your first post that "it takes alot for this Firefighter to admit to being scared" and also in the middle of your post where you made it to the back of the boat you mentioned that you were "EXTREMELY embarassed."
Do you think that maybe these statements reveal a precondition that set you up for making the mistakes you enumerate above.
Do you think that maybe these statements reveal a precondition that set you up for making the mistakes you enumerate above.