so this thread has basically died, but I thought I would just pop in and ask a couple of questions. I've always been about overcoming my fears and weaknesses. I've had experiences thru life that affected me by doing things I used to do with no fear. For instance, I used to snorkel and free dive to 20-30ft with absolutely no problem... then I did a cliff dive one day into tight little pool on Maui, and got hung up for a minute in the dark water... as a result, I developed a strange fear of being under water...
the first time I dove, I had to push everything out of my mind, we were diving with Chinese Navy divers who were making extra money with vacation divers and no real 'training' of any kind... I wasn't very smart on what SHOULD have been going on, but for my wife and four kids that all were participating, I put my fears aside and focused on them and all of them safely getting back to the surface... then a couple years ago we did DSD in Philippines with a great instructor, but still, I was almost panicking under water, feeling a little claustrophobic and wanting to just breathe normally, no just thru my mouth... it took a few minutes, but again, I pushed it to the back of my mind.
This spring, we went to Thailand, and I did DSD again, and since we were on the boat the instructor just kept supervising and training thru two more dives even if they wouldn't count 'officially' for PADI OW qual... each dive I got more comfortable, so when I decided to go back at the end of April to finish my OW, that week of diving and 8 dives were all great, no panic, no claustrophobia, just lots of practice with dive skills.. I figure that feeling is still in the back of my mind and will probably want to surface some day if I have a complication, but I think I've also learned to manage it.
So, what does that have to do with cave diving? well, I like exploring, but when I was a kid, I got trapped in a cave at a pinch point, of course once I relaxed, they got me out easily, but I've hated tight cramped places ever since. And that begs the question... seems like there are lots of cave diving locations, and I should be able to enjoy the feeling of exploration in many, many places without the extreme kind of cave exploration that some people do right?
So, it is bad to want to overcome my fears, enjoy that exploring feeling, but avoid the stuff that I know will make me so uncomfortable, I compromise my ability to control my irrational thoughts?
Long story short, I want to cave and wreck dive because I want to see places that few people see, but I also will choose to simply take the easier router while others might have the ability and desire to go farther.