NAUI Wowie
Contributor
So a little background first. I am brand new to diving. I finished my PADI course work and did my first day in the pool doing every skill our instructors asked of us without issue. Well, There was one issue at the beginning of our pool session that I was able to push through over time. Took me about 10 minutes to feel like I was getting enough air per breath at the beginning of our pool session. Over those 10 minutes under the water I had this almost uncontrollable urge to surface. I was able to talk myself out of this urge and continue to breath. After that 10 minutes while we continued to work on skills I felt great and enjoyed every minute of diving/training there after.
The issue I am having though is....... 2 weeks later we went to do our Open Water dives at a geothermal lake. Upon doing our 5 point descent and holding onto the buoy rope to descend to our training platform in the lake 20 feet down. That same feeling I had during our training pool dive was back. And this time in full force. There was nothing i could tell myself to make anything seem ok. I kept trying to descend getting closer and closer to the platform but the urge to ascend was to great.(I was also struggling to equalize my left ear. Because of my panicked head/breathing and was trying to equalize very hard). I signaled to my instructor with stop / problem / pointing to my ears and chest. I stopped for a moment and ascended maybe a foot or two to take pressure off my ears. But again the feeling of not being able to breath coupled in with everything else going on at the moment was to much. My breathing became sporadic and at one point very shallow almost to the point of hyper ventilating. After about 5-6 very short panicked breaths I was able to tell myself to calm down and take long deep breaths (Even these felt awful). At this point my other dive instructor above and behind me grabbed me by the shoulder and signaled me to ascend. So my other dive instructor and I ascended to the top while i held onto the rope all the way up. Once at the surface I couldn't shake how i felt under the water and wouldn't commit fully to trying again. I called my dives there and wouldn't do another dive for the weekend. This whole experience really weighed on me. I felt like a complete failure to myself / my instructors and my class.........
Since this experience I have been doing a lot of research on breathing techniques. But my ultimate question is..... Will this feeling of not being able to breath underwater ever go away. I'm assuming with more practice and diving experience the body and mind will cope with what is going on and just like any other thing in life becomes second nature after repetition.
Any advice to get through this would be great.
Per my instructors request I am doing another pool dive this weekend.... Hopefully I can learn to feel more confident / comfortable about breathing under the water...... Or as my wife says "Remind yourself you are a fluffy cloud" (Lightning McQueen joke there.... for those that have little kids and watch Disney movies) meaning to get out of your own head and relax...... She knows I'm not a very relaxed person and when asked to do so takes me time.
Is your Atomic regulator fully screwed out for max airflow? I have an Atomic also. Counterclockwise out. Its the nob on left next to where you stick the mouthpiece in your mouth. If that is fully dialed in you will not be getting as much air. If that is all the way out for free airflow then its all in your head which most of us have different issues we deal with.
I had similar feelings in my cold water dives if water visibility is about 2 to 3 feet. Its sometimes that bad in Monterey CA and with all heavy gear i.e. an 8/7 mil semi dry suit, a heavy 120cf steel tank, pony, etc etc it was a bit daunting trying to submerge first couple times.
Btw way the Atomic Z2 env sealed reg is pretty darn awesome. It will supply far far more air than you could possibly ever use if its dialed out counterclockwise.
fyi I borrowed a friends apeks reg for my deep dive on AOW test dive and it was fully dialed in and at 90 feet I couldnt get enough air and with heavy finning to get over to the group I actually had a CO2 hit and literally passed out for a couple seconds and breathed in saltwater which woke me up I guess. At that point I had a dark Narc and had an extreme urge to shoot to the surface. I didnt and fought it and went up to try to get rid of the feeling. Still stayed and i went down to about 75 feet again to try to make it to the sea floor at 100 feet. Couldnt do it.
A feeling of impending doom and death made me head back up to about 60 feet where another AOW guy had a dark narc from 100 ft deep and was now at 60 and basically finning hard for the surface and blew through his safety stop after 1 minute. I did not fin up hard nor did I blow through my safety stop because I was mentally pushing against feelings I knew were not real.
A couple months later with a lot of research on what and why I passed out I went to check that regulator and found out why I had passed out. I felt stupid and I could have died but I learned the number one lesson. KNOW everything about the equipment you use even and especially if it is borrowed or rented.
What my longwinded story is simply trying to relate is that many of us fight to overcome irrational fear and work our way through it. My solution to my low to zero viz diving was to go back out on the boat on the same dive trip two more times in the next month until I beat that fear down completely. I will NOT let my lizard brain win out over my thinking brain.
and if all that didnt help you then ill quote a movie scene " You can dooo eeeet!"
Just keep trying.