I wasnt sure what to expect when Jenny and I arrived for our 12-4am shift Friday night. It was dark and the whales were nothing more than dark shapes in the water. Four volunteers surrounded each and it was all so very quiet. The man giving the orientation said it was a hospital setting and he was right. I felt compelled to speak in a soft voice. Loud talking and laughter seemed somehow inappropriate.
I was asked to help out with 300. I took secondary position, placing one hand on her dorsal fin and the other on the shoulder of the volunteer in front of me. Her skin felt smooth and soft, more human than animal.
She was quivering. Not granny-holding-a-teacup shaky. More like a racehorse at the starting gate. If the quiver had a sound it would have been a low corvette rumble. I glanced behind me at her tail. Thats when it hit me: WHOA. Her tail, hidden from shore by the dark water, stretched out as long again as her body. The mighty strength of that tail and fluke humbled me. I was holding (holding!!!) a wild animal that could kill me as quickly and easily as a lion. And she was allowing me to stand right there next to her! I tilted my head up and looked at the night sky, full of stars. My eyes filled with tears.
At one point the lights went out. We stood in silence, holding the animals, our feet constantly shifting to maintain balance in the chest-deep water. When the lights came back on, the three whales had somehow managed to move everyone closer together. We were asked to gently herd them back into their original positions.
After a short break I was put on 302 in primary position. I could tell instantly that she was not as strong as 300. I felt if I let go she would sink. My forearm started to ache and cramp within a few minutes. It is still sore now, four days later. The breath from her blowhole was awful! She even smelled sick. She did not quiver like 300. I pray she will make it.
I wasnt sure what to expect. I wasnt expecting to fall in love with three whales. I wasnt expecting to be disappointed that I didnt get to hold the baby, 301. I wasn't expecting to dream of whales. And I certainly wasnt expecting to plan when I can volunteer again.