Profound apologies for this LONG posting. Kind of meanders a bit.
Today was supposed to be my first OW ocean dive. I panicked. My goggles kept fogging up. When I put my head in a water, some came in. Now, I know how to clear it, was able to do it all the time in the pool, and so on, but I just didn't want to submerge. Plus, I was last to join the group in the ocean, I was majorly slow, and and trouble with everything else.
Asked my instructor if I should do it or not. He kind of agreed that I shouldn't. Now, this post is not to criticize him or anything. He's a great instructor. Has been extraordinarily patient and kind with me. I was always the last one in the class to get anything, and so on. Anyway, he's a great guy (and believe me, I rarely ever say that of anyone in general) so that's not what this post is about.
It's a PADI class at a Sport Chalet. He said that I could keep practicing in the pool and um, work out some fitness issues. Plus my swimming ability seriously sucks. I meant kicking from the hips and so on and I guess the swimming itself as well (at least I don't drown). Plus, I was always kind anxious in the class over everything single thing. I know.......why on earth was I taking it then? I really did want to learn scuba diving. Even though, I was somewhat fearful of it. Go figure.
Anyway, since I passed the written test, it's only a couple of ocean dives left. God, I really wanted to do the Santa Cruz/Anacapa dive tomorrow. Today was the Redondo beach dive....a practice drill so to speak. Anyway, in six weeks I could do the dive with another class (I'm assuming that's what he meant).
The pool practices, I'd have to schedule it with him or couple of others and so on. And then do it in six weeks as mentioned.
My question is that, is that the norm for this? I mean, I don't have to take the class over so to speak, cause I've passed the written part. It only needs a couple of dives to technically complete it. I was seriously upset that I didn't do it. And I was distant,snappy, and offish...with him. He did seem to go out of his way to tell me that this is not the end of it and to practice, work out, and do it again.
I could email him and recheck this offer about this and if it doesn't go out of his way and of his colleagues, then I suppose I should take him on it.
Should I? I just want to know if this is the standard norm for students who panic at the last minute at the ocean......in their PADI class at Sport Chalet. I want to know if this offer is a standard offer given to students who don't do the ocean dive. Cause if it's not, I suppose I should consider myself lucky for such an offer. If it is a standard offer, maybe I'll do it or not. I don't know. I'm kind of upset with myself the most. I'm upset that I pulled out. I'm sad. I don't know if I should push myself to finish it or not. I tend to be one of those IDIOTIC kind of person who gives up way too easily. I'm scared of trying again and not being able to do it. But, if the offer was out of norm, cause, see, I'm one of those kind of loners, and this class was kind of something out of norm for me as well, so, I would at least appreciate the meaning and the sentiment that he extended in his offer. And maybe not dismiss it so lightly. Does that sound dumb?
Anyway, trying to end this darn post, otherwise it'll end up being a book. What do you think? Norm or not? Should I do it or not? And whatever else you think. Feel free to be honest. It's not going to hurt my feelings, and besides, I couldn't possibly feel any worse than I do right now.
Today was supposed to be my first OW ocean dive. I panicked. My goggles kept fogging up. When I put my head in a water, some came in. Now, I know how to clear it, was able to do it all the time in the pool, and so on, but I just didn't want to submerge. Plus, I was last to join the group in the ocean, I was majorly slow, and and trouble with everything else.
Asked my instructor if I should do it or not. He kind of agreed that I shouldn't. Now, this post is not to criticize him or anything. He's a great instructor. Has been extraordinarily patient and kind with me. I was always the last one in the class to get anything, and so on. Anyway, he's a great guy (and believe me, I rarely ever say that of anyone in general) so that's not what this post is about.
It's a PADI class at a Sport Chalet. He said that I could keep practicing in the pool and um, work out some fitness issues. Plus my swimming ability seriously sucks. I meant kicking from the hips and so on and I guess the swimming itself as well (at least I don't drown). Plus, I was always kind anxious in the class over everything single thing. I know.......why on earth was I taking it then? I really did want to learn scuba diving. Even though, I was somewhat fearful of it. Go figure.
Anyway, since I passed the written test, it's only a couple of ocean dives left. God, I really wanted to do the Santa Cruz/Anacapa dive tomorrow. Today was the Redondo beach dive....a practice drill so to speak. Anyway, in six weeks I could do the dive with another class (I'm assuming that's what he meant).
The pool practices, I'd have to schedule it with him or couple of others and so on. And then do it in six weeks as mentioned.
My question is that, is that the norm for this? I mean, I don't have to take the class over so to speak, cause I've passed the written part. It only needs a couple of dives to technically complete it. I was seriously upset that I didn't do it. And I was distant,snappy, and offish...with him. He did seem to go out of his way to tell me that this is not the end of it and to practice, work out, and do it again.
I could email him and recheck this offer about this and if it doesn't go out of his way and of his colleagues, then I suppose I should take him on it.
Should I? I just want to know if this is the standard norm for students who panic at the last minute at the ocean......in their PADI class at Sport Chalet. I want to know if this offer is a standard offer given to students who don't do the ocean dive. Cause if it's not, I suppose I should consider myself lucky for such an offer. If it is a standard offer, maybe I'll do it or not. I don't know. I'm kind of upset with myself the most. I'm upset that I pulled out. I'm sad. I don't know if I should push myself to finish it or not. I tend to be one of those IDIOTIC kind of person who gives up way too easily. I'm scared of trying again and not being able to do it. But, if the offer was out of norm, cause, see, I'm one of those kind of loners, and this class was kind of something out of norm for me as well, so, I would at least appreciate the meaning and the sentiment that he extended in his offer. And maybe not dismiss it so lightly. Does that sound dumb?
Anyway, trying to end this darn post, otherwise it'll end up being a book. What do you think? Norm or not? Should I do it or not? And whatever else you think. Feel free to be honest. It's not going to hurt my feelings, and besides, I couldn't possibly feel any worse than I do right now.