kaylee_ann
crazy diver
I sort of get the mindset. not from normally being good at everything, but from being a huge perfectionist and having strict standards. and when I don't feel I met those, it's really discouraging. not that I see it as a competition with others tho, more so one with myself.(only read the OP)
I feel like you had quite high expectations of yourself. You studied the books, passed the exams with better scores than anyone else, have previous (dry) experience, you're a pilot, you passed all the medical tests... And then it turned out you weren't perfect under the water.
Take it easy man, it's your first time. You don't have to know everything yet, that's why you're doing the course. It's good to be prepared but it's not a competition.
Although it's not an excuse for the behavior of your instructor, if you showed this know-it-all attitude during my course and then turned out to struggle as much as you said, I'd also roll my eyes...
Relax, take a 1-on-1 course and just forget about what you learned already, do as your instructor says and breathe.... It's supposed to be fun!
edit: academics have always been my thing, but hands-on stuff? nope. was especially nervous for that reason. definitely didn't equate success in one for success in the other, as I recommend everyone should also do. they're very different animals.