It's very common to be head-up as a preventive measure if the center of mass is closer to your head than the center of volume/buoyancy.
Wetsuit or drysuit? 19 kg of lead is a lot if you're wearing a wetsuit, but you need what you need. There's also interplay with you being head up, requiring extra weight to compensate for the vertical component of your diagonal kicking.
Step 1 is establish the total lead needed. With a FULL tank and empty BC, find how much lead you need so you DON'T sink at the end of a normal exhale, but you will sink if you fully exhale. To that amount, add lead equaling the weight of the gas you'll breath during the dive. One kg of air is 775 bar.liters, so a 12 L tank at 200 bar has about 3 kg of air in it (=12*200/775). Alternatively, you could use a nearly empty tank and not have to make any adjustment for the gas weight.
Make sure you flood your wetsuit before doing this. Also cross your ankles to prevent you from unconsciously finning upward.
If you do the above in a pool, you will need additional lead in salt water equaling 2.5% of your total dry-land weight with gear/tank/everything. (This is based on the average salinity around the world.) If your body weight is ~115 kg, that'll be about 3-3.5 kg.
Step 2 is to distribute the lead you found in step 1. Get horizontal and then freeze / stop moving. If you rotate head down, that's confirmation you need to shift lead lower. Switching from neutral to negatively buoyant fins can take the place of about 0.5 kg of lead.