Persephone
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Hey everyone, long-time lurker over here, it's my first time posting, and I'm very sorry it's such a long one....
I'm completely devastated after failing my Open Water this weekend, and am in some serious need for some perspective, advice and hopefully encouragement. I've been wanting to learn how to dive for over a decade, and finally decided to give a proper go. I live part time in Iceland so I went to do the OW course here over a three day weekend.
The pool dives were done on day 1 and went well - however, ALL dives are done in a drysuit, because there's no real wetsuit dive sites in Iceland, since the water's like 2-3 degrees C, maybe 8 in some places. The pool dives were all about getting used to the drysuit and that super restrictive feeling whilst also still trying to figure out how to actually dive... but all good, completed the exercises, got more confident as the day went on and felt optimistic about the upcoming Open Water dives at the end of day 1.The only thing that worried me was the weight of the gear - I'm a 36yo female, 160cm / 5ft 3, and not particularly strong, at all - could just make it out of the pool with all the gear, and was able to walk a little bit with it on; but with the dry suit and the gear I felt as though a hippo was sitting on my chest (even when I inflated the suit somewhat), whilst choking me (I also needed an additional strap around the neck seal) and I'm carrying another hippo on my back at the same time, it was beyond exhausting. And then during the next two days on the Open Water dives everything went wrong, just everything - I had no idea how far we would have to walk with the gear on for every single dive, across slippery uneven stones and rocks, so by the time we reached waist deep water I was just about ready to pass out, with the suit being so tight and the gear being unbearably heavy, I just couldn't catch my breath at all; by the time we had to put our regulators on I was still breathing so fast like I had just done a sprint, and could just not breathe quickly enough through it. The first time I also fell twice wading through the water because my legs couldn't carry the weight anymore, and then I couldn't catch my breath and needed to go out and try again in the afternoon.
Once I was underwater I usually felt ok, I didn't have issues with the suit, in fact I liked the insulation and protection, and liked using it for buoyancy, and I didn't think I was doing badly - then the next day the CESA exercise, I couldn't get enough momentum to catapult myself in the suit high enough out of the water to manually inflate the BCD, got a couple breaths in, and was again so exhausted that I needed to breathe faster but the neck seal and the suit, with the gazillion thermal layers and undergarments, were too restrictive to let me do that. At that point I called it a day, I knew it just wouldn't get better. I'm not a panicky person, and I wasn't panicking that I wasn't getting any air, I was just so exhausted from the weight of the gear, and the kicking, and the restrictive suit which wouldn't let me breathe as fast as I needed to, my mind was always calm and I was trying to breathe slowly and deeply and just relax - but my body just cannot bear the weight and then immediately go from really heavy fast breathing and a pulse of 150-160 to super relaxed in an instance.
I feel like the biggest failure, no one seems to have an issue passing the OW, but I also feel a bit cheated by the dive centre tbh.. of course I understand there is no wetsuit diving in Iceland, but the theory studying ahead of the practical course made it all look as though even people who aren't regularly competing in Strong Man can go diving, they just put their gear on in the water, or they gear up on a boat and then drop in. Some kind of warning about the conditions, of how heavy the gear really is, how the restrictive dry suits can make it that much more challenging - especially for complete novices! - and how far you'd have to walk to the dive sites with all the gear on, would have been much appreciated, then I could have saved myself some cash, disappointment, and a lot of tears because I feel like an absolute failure. Everyone makes it seem as though it's next to impossible to fail the OW, and I've seen people post who aren't crazy strong or have injuries that don't allow them to carry the gear as much, and they all seem to be able to do it. Am I just hopeless, or is there a chance that learning in a wet suit in warmer waters is just easier?
I don't seem to find a lot of posts online of people having done their entire OW in a drysuit, so I have no understanding of whether others are finding it just as difficult. I was also struggling to put my mask back on underwater because I was of course wearing a hood and three-finger gloves, making me feel like retarded lobster unable to get the strap back over my head, fumbling with it for over two minutes with ice water in my face.. I feel terrible for having to give up on my dream and have no idea where to go from here. The instructor was nice and all, but I think he got fed up with me towards the end, I was hoping he'd say something encouraging, like, that I can probably do it, but maybe learning in Iceland is just not the right path for me; but he didn't so maybe he thinks I'm not capable.. just so sad and hoping to hear something from people who've done both wet and drysuit and can maybe understand what I'm describing and offer up some advice on the learning conditions.
I'm completely devastated after failing my Open Water this weekend, and am in some serious need for some perspective, advice and hopefully encouragement. I've been wanting to learn how to dive for over a decade, and finally decided to give a proper go. I live part time in Iceland so I went to do the OW course here over a three day weekend.
The pool dives were done on day 1 and went well - however, ALL dives are done in a drysuit, because there's no real wetsuit dive sites in Iceland, since the water's like 2-3 degrees C, maybe 8 in some places. The pool dives were all about getting used to the drysuit and that super restrictive feeling whilst also still trying to figure out how to actually dive... but all good, completed the exercises, got more confident as the day went on and felt optimistic about the upcoming Open Water dives at the end of day 1.The only thing that worried me was the weight of the gear - I'm a 36yo female, 160cm / 5ft 3, and not particularly strong, at all - could just make it out of the pool with all the gear, and was able to walk a little bit with it on; but with the dry suit and the gear I felt as though a hippo was sitting on my chest (even when I inflated the suit somewhat), whilst choking me (I also needed an additional strap around the neck seal) and I'm carrying another hippo on my back at the same time, it was beyond exhausting. And then during the next two days on the Open Water dives everything went wrong, just everything - I had no idea how far we would have to walk with the gear on for every single dive, across slippery uneven stones and rocks, so by the time we reached waist deep water I was just about ready to pass out, with the suit being so tight and the gear being unbearably heavy, I just couldn't catch my breath at all; by the time we had to put our regulators on I was still breathing so fast like I had just done a sprint, and could just not breathe quickly enough through it. The first time I also fell twice wading through the water because my legs couldn't carry the weight anymore, and then I couldn't catch my breath and needed to go out and try again in the afternoon.
Once I was underwater I usually felt ok, I didn't have issues with the suit, in fact I liked the insulation and protection, and liked using it for buoyancy, and I didn't think I was doing badly - then the next day the CESA exercise, I couldn't get enough momentum to catapult myself in the suit high enough out of the water to manually inflate the BCD, got a couple breaths in, and was again so exhausted that I needed to breathe faster but the neck seal and the suit, with the gazillion thermal layers and undergarments, were too restrictive to let me do that. At that point I called it a day, I knew it just wouldn't get better. I'm not a panicky person, and I wasn't panicking that I wasn't getting any air, I was just so exhausted from the weight of the gear, and the kicking, and the restrictive suit which wouldn't let me breathe as fast as I needed to, my mind was always calm and I was trying to breathe slowly and deeply and just relax - but my body just cannot bear the weight and then immediately go from really heavy fast breathing and a pulse of 150-160 to super relaxed in an instance.
I feel like the biggest failure, no one seems to have an issue passing the OW, but I also feel a bit cheated by the dive centre tbh.. of course I understand there is no wetsuit diving in Iceland, but the theory studying ahead of the practical course made it all look as though even people who aren't regularly competing in Strong Man can go diving, they just put their gear on in the water, or they gear up on a boat and then drop in. Some kind of warning about the conditions, of how heavy the gear really is, how the restrictive dry suits can make it that much more challenging - especially for complete novices! - and how far you'd have to walk to the dive sites with all the gear on, would have been much appreciated, then I could have saved myself some cash, disappointment, and a lot of tears because I feel like an absolute failure. Everyone makes it seem as though it's next to impossible to fail the OW, and I've seen people post who aren't crazy strong or have injuries that don't allow them to carry the gear as much, and they all seem to be able to do it. Am I just hopeless, or is there a chance that learning in a wet suit in warmer waters is just easier?
I don't seem to find a lot of posts online of people having done their entire OW in a drysuit, so I have no understanding of whether others are finding it just as difficult. I was also struggling to put my mask back on underwater because I was of course wearing a hood and three-finger gloves, making me feel like retarded lobster unable to get the strap back over my head, fumbling with it for over two minutes with ice water in my face.. I feel terrible for having to give up on my dream and have no idea where to go from here. The instructor was nice and all, but I think he got fed up with me towards the end, I was hoping he'd say something encouraging, like, that I can probably do it, but maybe learning in Iceland is just not the right path for me; but he didn't so maybe he thinks I'm not capable.. just so sad and hoping to hear something from people who've done both wet and drysuit and can maybe understand what I'm describing and offer up some advice on the learning conditions.