PerroneFord
Contributor
I would just like to give a hearty thanks to the supportive group of folks here. Without your constant feedback and support, Im not sure I would have done what I did tonight. Many of us have some irrational fears in our lives. Whether it be death, heights, depth, or what have you. Mine was simple. It was having water in my eyes. No, seriously.
As a kid I enjoyed the pool tremendously. Lots of fun times, and great summers. One day as a young boy, I went to the pool and like I had done many times before, I opened my eyes underwater. Unfortunately, some lunatic had shocked the pool with about 4x the normal amount of chlorine. My eyes burned for hours. It was a terribly traumatic experience. Some years later, my mom needed to put eyedrops in my eyes. I tried to overcome my fears and do it. They burned like hell, reminded me of my former trauma. Needless to say, this was NOT helpful when it came time some 15 years later for my open water class. I fumbled through and somehow managed to do well enough to pass. That was 11 years ago. And this fear has been sitting there since then.
I knew that in order to dive again, I'd have to get beyond this. But like the person who has a fear of heights, summoning up the courage to walk to that ledge and look over, takes a lot of moxy. So tonight, after my pool practice session, I just decided to do it. In 4 feet of water, I flooded my mask, and "panic". I stood out of the water, disgusted. Took of my mask and cursed myself and my fears. I still had my regulator in my mouth. I decided to just give it another go. I put my face back in the water with my eyes closed and just focused on my breathing. After a minute or so of calm, slow breathing, I slowly opened my eyes. It didn't burn, and it didn't hurt, but it was strange. If you can imagine, it was actual task loading as I tried to fight my fear and breathe without my mask. I closed my eyes to calm myself. Then I opened them again, and took a look around the pool. I slowly sat down and just looked around and took slow breaths. I had slayed the dragon. I had my eyes open, mask off, and was breathing calmly. For 11 years that moment had eluded me...
I will get in the pool again Wednesday and try a slow swim without the mask. Slowly build up my confidence. But this was a very very good day. My buoyancy was decent, my frog kick is coming along, but I put my tank too low again which is a PITA. Couldn't do my valve drill.
Anyway, thank you to all the DIR faithful for sharing your stories of personal triumph. They were inspirational in helping me reach this day. This hurdle I had to jump before getting into open water again.
As a kid I enjoyed the pool tremendously. Lots of fun times, and great summers. One day as a young boy, I went to the pool and like I had done many times before, I opened my eyes underwater. Unfortunately, some lunatic had shocked the pool with about 4x the normal amount of chlorine. My eyes burned for hours. It was a terribly traumatic experience. Some years later, my mom needed to put eyedrops in my eyes. I tried to overcome my fears and do it. They burned like hell, reminded me of my former trauma. Needless to say, this was NOT helpful when it came time some 15 years later for my open water class. I fumbled through and somehow managed to do well enough to pass. That was 11 years ago. And this fear has been sitting there since then.
I knew that in order to dive again, I'd have to get beyond this. But like the person who has a fear of heights, summoning up the courage to walk to that ledge and look over, takes a lot of moxy. So tonight, after my pool practice session, I just decided to do it. In 4 feet of water, I flooded my mask, and "panic". I stood out of the water, disgusted. Took of my mask and cursed myself and my fears. I still had my regulator in my mouth. I decided to just give it another go. I put my face back in the water with my eyes closed and just focused on my breathing. After a minute or so of calm, slow breathing, I slowly opened my eyes. It didn't burn, and it didn't hurt, but it was strange. If you can imagine, it was actual task loading as I tried to fight my fear and breathe without my mask. I closed my eyes to calm myself. Then I opened them again, and took a look around the pool. I slowly sat down and just looked around and took slow breaths. I had slayed the dragon. I had my eyes open, mask off, and was breathing calmly. For 11 years that moment had eluded me...
I will get in the pool again Wednesday and try a slow swim without the mask. Slowly build up my confidence. But this was a very very good day. My buoyancy was decent, my frog kick is coming along, but I put my tank too low again which is a PITA. Couldn't do my valve drill.
Anyway, thank you to all the DIR faithful for sharing your stories of personal triumph. They were inspirational in helping me reach this day. This hurdle I had to jump before getting into open water again.