I think that it is commendable that Matt opened this discussion up and has been so honest in his self-evaluation. My take on all of this is that Matt is doing dives beyond his experience/competence/comfort level and using a DM as a Band-Aid.
Matt, I strongly suggest that you get more experience in a more controlled environment, preferably one with a shallow bottom. After several dives at fairly shallow depths with a bottom, then plan a little deeper dives and then progress slowly and safely to more challenging environments. Some have suggested local dives, but you really are not ready for thedives off our Maryland coast. There are few saltwater dives in our area that don't include being far from shore above cold water with limited vis and I am pretty sure that none of our local dive boatsoffer the kind of DM supervision you want/need. Local quarries can offer you the chance to gain time in the water and dive experience, but they are generally cold below 20 feet. You might consider weekend trips to Lake Rawlingsin VA as it is the closest place with reasonable water temps and vis. You might consider more training classes with a different instructor as a way to gain more experience under supervision. With the right instructor, you would probably benefit from classes like underwaternavigation and peak performance buoyancy. Please rethink doing dives with DM supervision that you are not comfortable doing unsupervised. You are putting your life into the hands of a stranger and trusting in their skill.
Jackie
Matt, I strongly suggest that you get more experience in a more controlled environment, preferably one with a shallow bottom. After several dives at fairly shallow depths with a bottom, then plan a little deeper dives and then progress slowly and safely to more challenging environments. Some have suggested local dives, but you really are not ready for thedives off our Maryland coast. There are few saltwater dives in our area that don't include being far from shore above cold water with limited vis and I am pretty sure that none of our local dive boatsoffer the kind of DM supervision you want/need. Local quarries can offer you the chance to gain time in the water and dive experience, but they are generally cold below 20 feet. You might consider weekend trips to Lake Rawlingsin VA as it is the closest place with reasonable water temps and vis. You might consider more training classes with a different instructor as a way to gain more experience under supervision. With the right instructor, you would probably benefit from classes like underwaternavigation and peak performance buoyancy. Please rethink doing dives with DM supervision that you are not comfortable doing unsupervised. You are putting your life into the hands of a stranger and trusting in their skill.
Jackie