AggieManda
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Hello everyone...
So excited to find this board full of knowledgeable people! Hoping to meet people who have been in my shoes and can lend some helpful words of encouragement or advice.
I am new to the Scuba Board and to diving. I found this board while doing some internet research on "overcoming fear", haha.
We are taking a trip to Costa Rica at the end of August where I would like to do some light diving (one or two dive excursions of 50 feet or so...) I am currently in the process of becoming Open Water certified. I have always been what I thought was comfortable with the water. I am a sailor, like to swim and grew up fishing with my dad on the river. While I was eager to take the course, it has been much more challenging than I could have ever anticipated. First, I must say that I am taking one of those two weekender courses through a dive shop since it is so close to my trip. While the instructors are wonderful, there have been some issues that I have encountered that are proving difficult to overcome.
The classroom learning portion was great for me. I read the entire book before starting class and did very well on the quizzes and final written exam. When we went into the pool for the first time, I was fine. The equipment felt comfortable, everything seemed to be ok. The first set of skills we practiced were in the shallower end of the pool while kneeling on the bottom. We were down there for a good little while, about 20 min or so and I was completely fine. We worked on skills like partial mask flood, regulator loss and recovery, buddy breathing with an alternate air source, and the air tank depletion exercise.
However, when the time came to take our masks off underwater and replace them, and to breathe for one minute without a mask, I got a nose full of water and felt like I was drowning. Water in the nose has always been a phobia of mine, as I was pushed into the deep end of the pool as a small child and almost drowned. Naturally, I freaked out. I couldn't master the skill and the class had to move on. After that nothing felt right and everything freaked me out. Even being in the water produced anxiety. The regulator no longer felt good, the equipment became cumbersome and even a little water in my mask freaked me out. I haven't been able to recover ever since.
This happened in the middle of the first day of our confined dives (we got 2 days). My class was fairly large (14 split to two groups of 7), so the instructor of course didn't have time to accommodate my freak out, so the dive master worked with me one on one for the rest of that day. The next day, I almost didn't return (I laid in bed the night before petrified of getting back in the water), but wanted to stick it out. I freaked out again as soon as I hit the water, which resulted in another day of working one on one with the DM since the instructor didn't have time to work with me. By the end of the second day, I was feeling a little better and was able to perform all of the confined skills asked, even taking the mask of and replacing it underwater. The problem is, as soon as the mask was cleared I wanted to shoot to the surface to take it off and blow out my nose.
My problem now is that our open water dives are this weekend (Saturday and Sunday in a man made lake), and I go back and forth on if I feel comfortable enough to complete them. I have been practicing in the pool this week with the mask skills and getting comfortable in the water again, but I realize this is very different than being in open water in full Scuba gear. I know I can't return to the surface after every skill to take a breather and take my mask off. Some times when I think about it I think "No big deal, I can do it, I am confident" other times when I think about it, I am terrified. I just don't want the second part of me to win when I am under 20-30 feet of water this weekend and can not surface.
The shop has another certification class before we go, and I was thinking of asking if I could join that class when they do their pool skills to get more experience (problem is, I can only go one of those days), then do my open water dives with them after I have had more pool time in full scuba gear. Looking back now, I wish I had had the foresight to realize this was going to be a difficult process and taken a much longer (6 weeks or longer) course.
Obviously, I would love to finish my certification. I want to be able to finish what I started and overcome my fears, and would also love to be able to see all of the wonderful things that Scuba will allow me to see.
Does anyone have any feedback or advice? Suggestions on how to overcome this and if I should try to dive this weekend? Sorry for the LOOOONG introductory post!!
By the way, for the real intro...I live off the cost of Texas, am a relatively new newlywed, love horses and am a new mommy of the most wonderful little boy
So excited to find this board full of knowledgeable people! Hoping to meet people who have been in my shoes and can lend some helpful words of encouragement or advice.
I am new to the Scuba Board and to diving. I found this board while doing some internet research on "overcoming fear", haha.

We are taking a trip to Costa Rica at the end of August where I would like to do some light diving (one or two dive excursions of 50 feet or so...) I am currently in the process of becoming Open Water certified. I have always been what I thought was comfortable with the water. I am a sailor, like to swim and grew up fishing with my dad on the river. While I was eager to take the course, it has been much more challenging than I could have ever anticipated. First, I must say that I am taking one of those two weekender courses through a dive shop since it is so close to my trip. While the instructors are wonderful, there have been some issues that I have encountered that are proving difficult to overcome.
The classroom learning portion was great for me. I read the entire book before starting class and did very well on the quizzes and final written exam. When we went into the pool for the first time, I was fine. The equipment felt comfortable, everything seemed to be ok. The first set of skills we practiced were in the shallower end of the pool while kneeling on the bottom. We were down there for a good little while, about 20 min or so and I was completely fine. We worked on skills like partial mask flood, regulator loss and recovery, buddy breathing with an alternate air source, and the air tank depletion exercise.
However, when the time came to take our masks off underwater and replace them, and to breathe for one minute without a mask, I got a nose full of water and felt like I was drowning. Water in the nose has always been a phobia of mine, as I was pushed into the deep end of the pool as a small child and almost drowned. Naturally, I freaked out. I couldn't master the skill and the class had to move on. After that nothing felt right and everything freaked me out. Even being in the water produced anxiety. The regulator no longer felt good, the equipment became cumbersome and even a little water in my mask freaked me out. I haven't been able to recover ever since.
This happened in the middle of the first day of our confined dives (we got 2 days). My class was fairly large (14 split to two groups of 7), so the instructor of course didn't have time to accommodate my freak out, so the dive master worked with me one on one for the rest of that day. The next day, I almost didn't return (I laid in bed the night before petrified of getting back in the water), but wanted to stick it out. I freaked out again as soon as I hit the water, which resulted in another day of working one on one with the DM since the instructor didn't have time to work with me. By the end of the second day, I was feeling a little better and was able to perform all of the confined skills asked, even taking the mask of and replacing it underwater. The problem is, as soon as the mask was cleared I wanted to shoot to the surface to take it off and blow out my nose.
My problem now is that our open water dives are this weekend (Saturday and Sunday in a man made lake), and I go back and forth on if I feel comfortable enough to complete them. I have been practicing in the pool this week with the mask skills and getting comfortable in the water again, but I realize this is very different than being in open water in full Scuba gear. I know I can't return to the surface after every skill to take a breather and take my mask off. Some times when I think about it I think "No big deal, I can do it, I am confident" other times when I think about it, I am terrified. I just don't want the second part of me to win when I am under 20-30 feet of water this weekend and can not surface.
The shop has another certification class before we go, and I was thinking of asking if I could join that class when they do their pool skills to get more experience (problem is, I can only go one of those days), then do my open water dives with them after I have had more pool time in full scuba gear. Looking back now, I wish I had had the foresight to realize this was going to be a difficult process and taken a much longer (6 weeks or longer) course.
Obviously, I would love to finish my certification. I want to be able to finish what I started and overcome my fears, and would also love to be able to see all of the wonderful things that Scuba will allow me to see.
Does anyone have any feedback or advice? Suggestions on how to overcome this and if I should try to dive this weekend? Sorry for the LOOOONG introductory post!!
By the way, for the real intro...I live off the cost of Texas, am a relatively new newlywed, love horses and am a new mommy of the most wonderful little boy
