The Chairman
Chairman of the Board
I'm still here. I'm still living in North Central Florida aka Cave Country. No, I haven't forgotten you either, I've just been preoccupied with a sister who has stage 4 small cell lung cancer. Being a sole caregiver is a weighty responsibility. Indeed. Her son and his kids have lives and they'll visit when they can, but it's up to me to feed, care for, take to the doctor for her myriad of appointments 24/7/365. But, now it's time for me to watch her die, day by day. We did the chemo. We did the radiation. She took her meds because I made sure. I saw her reduced to barely a whisper of herself and then I saw her start to grow stronger as she got past the effects of her treatments. Right around Christmas the improvements stopped, then she crashed the last week of 2022. The cancer is back, worse than before, and there's a mass in her lungs that they can't remove without killing her. Way too week for more chemo, we've now entered the twilight zone of "hospice". Hospice is a newfangled word for deathwatch. Curative=>palliative=>hospice. Instead of hoping to see my sister dance again, my goal is to keep her warm, free from pain, and give her comfort. C'est la vie, or more aptly, c'est la mort!
The thing about hospice for a loved one is that it frees up a lot of time. Yeah, I still can't leave the house for hours at a time yet. That will come soon enough. Too soon. But I've done my mourning, I don't have to answer her in a few seconds to get her to the bathroom to pee as she has a catheter. She poops in her diapers and I just take care cleaner her. No greater love hath a brother for his sister as to wipe her butt. So, I'm catching up on all the cleaning I've ignored for the past 11 months, and I've caught up a lot on designing, and 3D printing several organizational doodads, which I call trays. I even installed a new AC unit by myself and am in the middle of moving a wall so my 3 inch too wide new refrigerator can fit in. I even feel mentally stable enough to post on ScubaBoard again. Yay! Maybe, I'm only posting to put off moving that wall???
So that's what I've been up to, and I hope I haven't been a Debbie Downer. Imagine what I've gone through this past year. But please, this isn't intended to be a pity party! I'm just glad to be back.
The thing about hospice for a loved one is that it frees up a lot of time. Yeah, I still can't leave the house for hours at a time yet. That will come soon enough. Too soon. But I've done my mourning, I don't have to answer her in a few seconds to get her to the bathroom to pee as she has a catheter. She poops in her diapers and I just take care cleaner her. No greater love hath a brother for his sister as to wipe her butt. So, I'm catching up on all the cleaning I've ignored for the past 11 months, and I've caught up a lot on designing, and 3D printing several organizational doodads, which I call trays. I even installed a new AC unit by myself and am in the middle of moving a wall so my 3 inch too wide new refrigerator can fit in. I even feel mentally stable enough to post on ScubaBoard again. Yay! Maybe, I'm only posting to put off moving that wall???
So that's what I've been up to, and I hope I haven't been a Debbie Downer. Imagine what I've gone through this past year. But please, this isn't intended to be a pity party! I'm just glad to be back.